Question:
I guess its' just bugs me cause I don't fully understand the reason
behind it, maybe it's partly genetics, but I'm obessed with finding
out the whys... can't help but think it'd lead me to better
understanding my feelings today.
I don't know.. does this make sense to anyone else?
Answer:
Been thinking a lot for the past several years about the experiences
I've had being depressed as a child. It's weird, I never really put
it together until recently, but it seems like the sheer amount of
depression I had back then and the weird, existential thoughts that
kept creeping up in my mind just aren't something most *normal* kids
seems to experience.
I can't really explain all them, but sometimes, for instance, I had
this weird idea that I needed to enjoy being a kid as much as possible
because I'd hate being a grown up. Or fact the that, even then,
certain songs would cause me to cry. I don't know seems like such
thing would be more normal for a hormonal teenager than a young boy.
I guess its' just bugs me cause I don't fully understand the reason
behind it, maybe it's partly genetics, but I'm obessed with finding
out the whys... can't help but think it'd lead me to better
understanding my feelings today.
I don't know.. does this make sense to anyone else?
I think I'm going to keep exploring this issue, maybe even in here a
few times, I hope will someone will want to come along and hlep me
find my way so to speak... If not, then at least let me ramble...
yep , makes sense to me i went through much of a similar childhood ,
it took me about 3 years of psychoanalysis to figure out what it all meant ,
and you're right , its a big weight off things when you find out why
